Have you ever felt so alone, even so you know there are a million-people caring? I guess when you have lost a child, you are able to see life without rose coloured glasses. It maybe a little self-pity or feel the pain that comes with SIDS, but why? Am I losing my mind? Will I just become bitter, well more bitter than I am already. The only things that keeps from wallowing in self-pity is my family.