Father Day

With total dread of this day, it began creeping up on me. I wished and wished for things to get in the way so I wouldn’t have to think about anything, I just wanted to be numb, but it came anyway. I am so grateful of Sarah not making a big thing of it as she could see that the slightest of things would turn the day on its head and put a dark cloud of sadness in my heart.

Five days before, work told me I had to work as it was a big day in the calendar, I let them know in no uncertain terms that it wasn’t going to happen. All guns blazing I was ready for a fight, It seem that life and the world keeps turning but not for me, but apart from that the day went well, we all went down to the lakes and met up with Sarah’s mum, who took us out for a meal.

My baby George, I’m so sorry, I try and try to hold back the tears but missing you keeps me awake a night wanting to hear your cry

Love you my baby, mummy and daddy miss you you xx

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